Dreams.

Sometimes I feel so full of hopes and dreams and wishes that I think I'm going to explode.

For example....

I want to deliver babies in a third-world country.

I want a rock awesome hubby who will laugh with me about silly little things, sing to me, and always hold my hand.

I want to travel the world and change people's lives.

I want lots and lots of babies.

I want to serve others in every possible way I can.

I want to be a woman who is strong and sure and knows her Savior.

These are just a few examples of some of the thoughts that are constantly running through my brain.

Sometimes I'm nervous to think about things like this though.

I start to worry and freak out and get all self-conscious.

What if people think I'm weird (ya I know, too late for that)?

What if my dreams never come true and my hopes are dashed forever?

What if, what if, what if....

But then I remember that Heavenly Father knows me completely.

Even better than I know myself.

And he wants me to be happy.

And if these things will make me happy, then he will let them happen.

And if he knows there is something that will make me happier, then bring it on!

Yesterday I was thinking about all these things.

I was wondering if I would ever be the woman I want to be.

Sometimes I feel so small and insignificant, and I can't imagine ever actually reaching my dreams.

So I went to the temple, and it was amazing.

I felt the sweetest impression that I DO matter, and if I stay close to my Heavenly Father, he WILL help my dreams come true.

I also felt strongly that everything I am going through right now is preparing me to be the woman I want to be. It's just hard to see right now.

As I walked out of the temple, it was like I saw my life stretched out before me, and I could see myself with my hubby and my big family, all gathered at the temple, living my dreams.

It made me so happy.

So I'm goin' to keep dreaming, hoping, and wishing,
because I know he's there, and I know he's listening.

"Dream" by Priscilla Ahn

~Manda